My One-Day-At-A-Time Method to my Madness seems to be working really effectively for me. I don’t know why I didn’t apply this in my life any sooner. It’s really simple and yet it took me THIS LONG to apply it. Every time I get excited and jump ahead in the future, I get overwhelmed and I find myself sitting down and planning things in my datebook and then this whole routine for the week, but they never get accomplished and THEN, I get stressed out and THEN, I get sick. So, now, when I get overwhelmed, I always ask myself, “Shit… now what, Kel?” One day at a time. Let’s just get through today. If not today, just this morning until Lunch. If not for this morning, then, just this hour and if not for that hour, shit, just drink a bottle of vodka and call it a day. Kidding! Just take it by five minutes at a time and just breathe regularly… I mean, I still have goals and plans in my datebook and everything is set in terms of reminders and alarms on my phone, but using this method has helped me accomplish more things in my life. I am finally getting things done. I am finally accomplishing a lot of things. I am finally seeing results. I am finally breaking the cycle of insanity. Do you know that saying? When you keep repeating what you’re doing, or doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results? Yeah… for sure—insanity. That’s not the healthy type of insanity. I mean, there’s different types, me thinks, like one that you and I are very familiar with and to some degree it can be a great inspiration in terms of creativity, but yeah, repeating something over and over again and expecting different results—total insanity. I broke it. I’m seeing results now and I’m actually seeing myself follow through on commitment. My 90-day Meditation Challenge is happening. It has not been 8 weeks yet and I am already seeing the benefits that Mind Body Green said. I have better concentration, my memory is stronger, and when I hold conversations with people, I am very present-minded. I held a conversation and was actually listening to her word for word without thinking ahead as to what I was going to say next after she was talking. It felt really… really good. I felt like I accomplished a lot today AND I did. I had 2 job interviews this morning, and then a 30-minute phone interview and I have another job interview on Friday. I felt bad yesterday because I didn’t thank God FIRST. I always thank God first. I’m not a crazy Christian (like I once was as a kid—for a brief moment, couple of years at the most) but I do believe in God. Some thank the Universe. Some thank Allah. It makes me wonder here, one sec… who do atheists thank when good things come to them? Anyway, I felt really bad but today, I didn’t forget to be very thankful and very grateful TO GOD and to my motivational speakers. I also thanked myself because I have been very good to myself and loving myself by really listening and being in tune with my body and my mind. So, another big day tomorrow. Lots of thank you notes to write. I’m editing a letter for my financial aid. Spring Quarter is my goal. Taking up Graphic Design. I know, it’s ABOUT FUCKING TIME. MY OLD ASS ISN’T GETTING ANY FUCKING YOUNGER. I look young, but my body always reminds me exactly how I old I am and am getting! But, anyway, as Earl Nightingale said, “Never give up on a dream just because of the time it will take to accomplish it. The time will pass anyway.” And, if I start going to school… fifteen, twenty years from now, I’ll have a lot of years under my belt. The Math is simple. So, it really is never too late. We just have to re-wire ourselves when it comes to shit like this. Thank God for the interwebz, right. So yeah, that’s about it, thank you notes, and then, gotta’ work on my vision board and add some more quotes that I learned from today, declutter, and do some errands. I know there’s more. This week is ending with some busy stuff. Very excited. I know the right job will call on me. All I have to do right now is be very patient and yes, just take it one day at a time and… focus on the present moment. Night… time to meditate. Gotta’ wake up early and review my motivational speeches from some speakers I picked.
And remember… go beyond. And RISE.
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