I’ve heard it enough times to know that my answer WAS “fear”, but the only thing I’m really scared of (not including spiders, really) is being laid off. I have had a string of bad luck with being laid off. That’s it. This is a good thing. If that’s the only thing I’m scared of, imagine the things that I could accomplish in my life. This means that I am no longer afraid to go for my dreams, I am no longer afraid to pursue my passions and more importantly, I am no longer afraid to fart in public. I would love to fart discreetly and see if anybody heard it. Or, even better, see if anybody could smell a quiet, but deadly fart. Ha. But, on a serious note… if it’s not fear that’s hindering me from completing a commitment, then what is it, because I don’t have fear holding me back anymore and I just realized what it is: comfort. It’s not seeking comfort. It’s being comfortable. It’s the slope after the peak of the hump. It’s after all the hype, the excitement and then I just stop. I stop there. I forget and then I slump into this comfort zone and then everything becomes stale. Now that I know what it is, I will make sure that when this happens, I will make sure to do something about it. Instead of feeling this mental plateau, I will make sure to have a new project or assignment ready for myself. This is a state of mind challenge so I’m going to have to have a calendar and put stickers on it because that is what works for me right now. If you want to commit to something, to really commit and stick to something, then use… stickers (YESSSSSS PUUUNNN INTEEENNNNDED). They work for me. It worked in Middle School in my Art Class throughout the year and we earned a movie night with pop corn in class. There’s nothing more rewarding than watching a movie in a classroom, snacking in the that classroom AND getting away with it because WE CAN. I have a point here though… I am advancing. Finally. No wonder I kept quitting. I achieve something and then, “That’s it?” And then… that’s it? I didn’t know at that time that I had stopped working on myself, that I had given up. I didn’t know that working on my self-esteem would be a full time job, 24/7… my health 24/7… that it doesn’t stop once you achieve something. That “something” is a MILE-STONE. After that, you advance to the next one and if you don’t have another one, then MAKE ONE. And then MAKE ANOTHER ONE, KEL. So, that’s where I’m at. Comfortable. I’m not comfortable right NOW, so I am inspired and fired up with lots of fuel to end this year with a big ass bang and boy am I going out with a big bang. Happiness is when your thoughts, words are in harmony with your actions. I paraphrased it but it’s by Mahatma Gandhi. That’s where I’m at right now. Soon…. The dust will settle and I will sit down and get into a routine and when “comfortable” comes around, I’m going to stand right in front of its face and say, “I am now going to advance past you.” I am going to find the next uncomfortable mile-stone that will get me to a higher place where I have not gone before. I will continue to break the insanity. What’s next? Stage 1 is done. I’ve done so many Stage 1’s in my life. Starting is half the battle. The first step is half the battle. I did that so many times. It’s easy to start over, but the challenge AFTER THAT…the plateau. Are you ready for that? And, when you get there, what are you going to do about it? For me? I don’t know YET. But, I know I have control over my life because my future is tomorrow, my past is my past and my present is now. And the rest… I leave it up to God. So if there’s anything I can take out of my own journal entry is this: What’s next? Don’t get comfortable. Take the next Stage. Stage 2…345678910 100%
That’s something to think about. I will create 10 stages to each challenge of the different aspects of my life:
That’ll be interesting… FO SHO
It’s the 10th again. My 30-day experiment of listening to Motivational Speakers has been completed. I’ll write about that some other time. 30 days… can you imagine? It’s changed my thinking already… imagine if I did this for the rest… of my life? It’s possible.
So… like I’ve mentioned in my earlier posts… *sigh* This one is for My Honey. FAMILY GUY. Omg… lol For my next 30-day Experiment, I will be watching Family Guy for 30 days straight in a row. Today…is… Day 1. Sweet mother… lol shit… Season 1 Episode 1. .. here weeeee goooooo lol shit…. Lol
(ps I love Family Guy… but.. 30 days? Every night? Lol I’m going to start quoting them like I do with motivational speakers hahah)
Burdz da WARD!!! Buh buh buhhhhrdz, da WARD!!!
And remember… go beyond. And RISE.
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