I really try, you know? It’s hard to be positive when you have mood swings (bipolar) and it affects your super hardcore (borderline personality), ruminate over it, and then it repeats in your head until you find a solution (ocd), but it’s possible to break the cycle of madness. You just have to make the decision to say “stop” and say “what’s next” instead of “get over it” or “move on”. Sometimes, saying, “Whatever. I’m over it” works. I learned that from Paris Hilton on the Simple Life. She used to say it all the time, “I’m over it.” And, whether you are “over it” or not, just the fact that you’re announcing it verbally allows your brain to subconsciously follow your lead eventually…

I say it’s hard to be positive because, well, first of all, it’s rainy, again. Of course it’s not a shocking surprise because it is the Pacific Northwest, but my point is that this Season affects my mood and again, I’ve mentioned that it can get really depressing. What I mean by “it’s possible” is that you can get out of it by listening to yourself: listen to your body and your mind. What are they trying to tell you and what do they need from you right now, at this moment today? Did you get enough sleep. Did you eat a healthy meal. Did you drink enough water. Are you on your period (pms’ing causes bitchiness). Did you poop (discomfort affects mood) and of course, medication is non-explanatory. If you didn’t poop, now you know why- go eat Fiber 1. If you are getting your period soon, sit back and relax and accept that you’ll be bitchy for a while. If you haven’t eaten—well, have a Snickers bar because you aren’t feeling like yourself. Ha. No, seriously though… EAT.

What made ”it’s possible” for me this morning? *sigh* Mm… it was spontaneity. I went to the bank this morning to change some of my money into coins for parking. They should really change that shit and have it accept debit cards. Seriously. It’s so stupid. It’s near 2016. Do you remember that show Beyond 2000? Yeah, exactly—it’s like… what the fuck 2000 what? I gave my card to the teller and she forgot to give it back to me, or it was my sleepy ass who didn’t recognize that I didn’t get it back from her. I drove back home and half way back she called me and I turned around get my card back. Wow… that’s a lot of “back”… I was really sleepy so I took advantage of their free coffee. I said, shit, why not. I deserve it. I  gave back the left over coins and put those back in my account. Might as well get some coffee while I’m here. The hit was wonderful. It got me pepped up right before I landed home. I was trying to figure out how to wake up and really get my groove on. How about a nap? No, no… no nap or else I’ll end up sleeping late again. Okay… coffee? Yeah, coffee is fine, but I need something else. And then I thought of trance: Tiesto, Armin, and some Thunder. Yeah, some Infected Mushroom. I was (and now) thinking of blasting some of that and just coloring a mandala and then a fix of motivational speakers. I need it. So when I was nearing my neighborhood, I heard some Nicki Minaj, hey ma ma oh hey ma ma ma, so I blasted that and decided to take the scenic route. I danced in my car while cruising, did some liquid movements and when the song was over, I turned around and here I am. I feel energized. But… it’s time to eat lunch. Even though I’m not hungry, I’m going to have to eat because… I have to. Health first or else shit’s going to creep up on me and next thing you know I’m back in the fucking hospital. So, I better be careful and always prevent shit before I need to even consider preventing anything. Anyway, I’ll eat now and blast some trance before I do some therapeutic stuff. I’m excited to do just that. And, to always think of it as one day at a time when things get over-whelming. Um… I’m most probably going to have chocolate-chip pancakes because I didn’t have any this past Sunday and I don’t feel like eating anything else. Yeah, that and an apple. Heh. I’m special.

And, remember… always go beyond… and RISE. Just like a fart smell. That shit rises.

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I am currently doing a 365 day challenge of listening to my favorite motivational speaker. I will be listening/reading to Les Brown for the next 365 days and then blogging about my self-improvement of all different aspects of my life called the well-rounded wheel: health, financial, mental, spiritual, intellectual, family, social, etc. I will use this to self-reflect for my growth in self-improvement. This blog is for my 5-year plan. I started this in 2015, August on my Birthday because I’ve realized that time just keep passing by and doing the same thing over and over again and expecting the same results has finally sunk into my brain that I was one of them thinking that I would get different results. That stopped on my Birthday last year. Now, I do check-ins during New Year’s Eve/Day which I just did my first one 2 nights ago. I like doing mine on my Birthday because it’s for me AND doing New Year’s resolution puts too much pressure on people and if they break it, they beat themselves up, lose their drive and just give up. I’ve come to realize that what works for me is working on myself for myself on my Birthday and then just doing check-ins New Year’s Eve/Day and this keeps me focused and motivated. 1 year is not enough. You need big goals, like 5 years and let 1 year be a milestone. (More on that on my blogs). I have broken down my dreams into goals and plans. I allocated them into smaller goals and plans and put them into SMART goals plans: specific, measurable, attainable, realistic and time-sensitive, because, c’mon….dreams don’t come true UNTIL you write them down into action plans, and hence, this site is born for MY OWN DREAMS. There will be inspirational quotes, inspirational articles with my take on them, and plenty other resources of inspirational/motivational everything and everyone that I can think of to assist in my personal growth and all aspects of my life. And, most importantly… it’s my place to write about whatever I want to write about and anything that interests me, so this is also a hobby for myself. So, welcome, come along the journey ride and watch me grow or you can tag along and grow with me. Happy New Year! My 2016 is amazing so far!! :) It’s also a place for me to just… grow and express my creativity and learn about myself.

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